Loving Myself Is Hard

Self Acceptance is a constant struggle in a world constantly telling you, you aren't good enough, thin enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough.

But I'm working on it.

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No room to deny… but they’re trying anyway

lh2020:

This post will probably validate every person who has ever accused me of “black rage” as a means to discredit or invalidate my feelings surrounding racism in the US but fuck it:

2008: nation cries “racism is over!”, when most critically minded people sighed collectively while still trying to enjoy the historic election.

2013: re-election happens, nation cries “we don’t even remember what a racist nation was like. Slavery? Get over it. Klan lynchings? Keep singing old songs. Trayvon? Prove the verdict was racist- you can’t because it’s the law. Laws can’t be racist because they are not people. Owned… so what if laws are man-made constructs enforced by potential racists, you still can’t prove anything within the legal system to do anything about it. What is systematic racism? Now you’re just making shit up.”

2014: “riots” over police murdering unarmed black kid. Ferguson police chief’s wife rants publicly about black population being “feral” unborn baby killing white people hunters who kill each other anyway. Members of the community are attacked by the police corralled and arrested even if they were not violent or participating in the riots. Several accounts of personal testimony circulating social media circuits. Militarized police force, government funded and supplied. Started because the community spoke up about not being okay with getting murdered by cops in the midst of non-violent action. Videos, photos… undeniable proof. Reporters surrounding event suffer the wrath of the police force as well. No where to hide, no room to deny. The war on black people is no longer just on our shoulders. You all see it- some still deny… some still argue… some still recede and say “not my fight”.

The fact is, this is not new territory. This isn’t some event that is unheard of. Sure, some places aren’t as bad as others, but the truth is, they all share the same systems, follow the same playbooks, and are ready at any given moment to bring the war-front right up to us.

I don’t need to mention gentrification, de facto segregation, educational and media bias, resource availability, prison system quotas, or even flaws in the employment fields at this point to prove without a doubt that we exist in a racist nation. A nation that decided if we can’t own or control them, black people are a threat. And like any threat, black people need to be monitored and then put down when control is not an option. Violent and non-violent, control by any means.

So nation, i ask you sincerely: what makes you think we’d believe racism was over when we’ve never left your crosshairs? You stretch and skew media coverage to criminalize us in anyway, but when there is no room to do so, what then? Police have proven over the years that our lives, no matter how many they take, are not worth the careers of those who swore to protect and serve. We all know that black people do not fall under the category of citizens yall elect to protect and serve, so what happens next? How many more videos, unshopped photos, personal and public testimonies do you need before you own up to your shit and fix things? You want us to fix a system you designed during a time when we were still property? Well, we can’t fix something that has never worked.
Black rage… go ahead and tell us how that is a bigger issue than getting gunned down on the streets when you’re unarmed and then your murderers getting full support of the judicial systems and media. That’s abuse 101, everybody.

Ok, fuck this week

Just spent half an hour making a campground reservation online while my MiL read me her card number. I love her, but I wish she would let me finish a sentence instead of providing her own ending midway through.

saxas:

People love watching and reading about dystopias and rebellions, but when it happens in real life suddenly those people are demonizing the resistance and championing the oppressors as the protectors of society. 

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thefrogman:

In the wake of her father’s death, some very cruel people sent disturbing messages to zeldawilliams. I found out that she is trying to raise money for St. Jude Children’s Hospital—a charity both her and her father have supported for a long time.
I thought maybe it would be a nice gesture if we could send some love her way and also help some kids in the process. I think that would be a fitting tribute and it might counter the internet awfulness she had to endure. 
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thefrogman:

In the wake of her father’s death, some very cruel people sent disturbing messages to zeldawilliams. I found out that she is trying to raise money for St. Jude Children’s Hospital—a charity both her and her father have supported for a long time.

I thought maybe it would be a nice gesture if we could send some love her way and also help some kids in the process. I think that would be a fitting tribute and it might counter the internet awfulness she had to endure. 

DONATE HERE!

I got married two years ago, a few days shy of my 60th birthday. My friends (and new husband) tell me I still look super awesome, and I can still do a pretty good downward dog.

But the inescapable fact is that — under normal circumstances (more about that later) — I am way past reproductive age. I have the hot flashes to prove it. If, as Niemeyer says, the whole point of marriage is not the mere parenting of kids but actual biological reproduction, it is clear to me that he believes that my marriage is invalid. To opponents of gay marriage, marriage is all about breeding. Since my breeding days are over, it looks like, marriage-wise, I should be, too.

And it isn’t just Virginia. Kentucky used the same argument. So did Georgia. And Texas. This argument is surely going all the way to the Supreme Court.

Think of the implications of this, ladies. Those of you who depend on Match.com for your partner search know just how annoying are those 45-year-old men (lying by a decade) seeking 25- to 35-year-olds. Who are they kidding?

But what if that’s what the framers of the Constitution intended marriage to be? A bond between young, fertile women and the older men who want them. For purposes of paternity, of course.

Marriage is thus not about friendship. Not commitment. Not companionship. Not even tax breaks. Just procreation. And love? I love my husband. I’m pretty sure he loves me. But according to the state of Virginia, without childbirth, what’s love got to do with it?

—   What’s Marriage Got To Do With Reproduction? | Amanda Bennett for the Washington Post (via gaywrites)

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femmadilemma:

Firstly, I’d like to thank the amazing and wonderful Tara O’Brien for drawing this gorgeous piece for me and the gq.  I highly recommend her for commissions!
Second, this is my top-surgery commemoration present for the gq.  It is only ONE WEEK until he goes under for surgery, and I wanted to have a lasting gift that we would always remember.
[Image is of two mermaids and a sea turtle, with the words “I’ve found a home in my shell” at the bottom.  One mermaid is white, fat, and blonde.  The second is white, red haired, and has top surgery scars.]
Please feel free to share!

femmadilemma:

Firstly, I’d like to thank the amazing and wonderful Tara O’Brien for drawing this gorgeous piece for me and the gq.  I highly recommend her for commissions!

Second, this is my top-surgery commemoration present for the gq.  It is only ONE WEEK until he goes under for surgery, and I wanted to have a lasting gift that we would always remember.

[Image is of two mermaids and a sea turtle, with the words “I’ve found a home in my shell” at the bottom.  One mermaid is white, fat, and blonde.  The second is white, red haired, and has top surgery scars.]

Please feel free to share!

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bheidh:

a reality check that’s a blow to the solar plexis

SEE ALSO: why i’m crumbling under the weight of prolonged loneliness for fear of letting anyone in again & repeating this

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madamethursday:

[Image: A tweet from Domo that reads: “wife of #Ferguson police chief says community is “feral”. RT @YourAnonNews​ @YourAnonNews​ Look at this crap pic.twitter.com/i6zeAbgSuN” Beneath it is a photo of an older white woman laughing next to a facebook post from Catherine Nardi reading: “They are feral and violent. They murder each other. They murder their unborn babies. They murder white people.They hate police officers and murder some of them, even black ones. They destroy neighbors and entire cities with garbage and drugs. They live their lives off the hard-earned tax dollars of other Americans. Yet somehow they are the victims. What insanity is that?” Beneath that is a very small photo of Ferguson police with a police dog facing a line of protestors.]
seekingwillow:

ek3heat:

greteal:

coffeeandcockatiels:

buddhabrot:

angrywocunited:

So the wife of Ferguson police chief says community is “feral”. 
A wild cracker appears.

Fuck this bitch

I am so fucking ashamed and my mind is boiling from the ignorance, these people are so brain-washed by their own entitlement I can’t even fucking deal.

That’s why you cannot trust white people

Don’t, don’t fucking do that, don’t you dare, we aren’t all like her, there are ignorant people in every race, why do we label each other with bad side of our perspective races, which happen to be a small percentage anyways, can we please stop identifying each other as the worst of ourselves

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This is why you can’t trust ek3heat and also other yt ppl. Cause even people in pain and reduced to animals is just a chance to make it all about themselves.

madamethursday:

[Image: A tweet from Domo that reads: “wife of #Ferguson police chief says community is “feral”. RT @YourAnonNews​ @YourAnonNews​ Look at this crap pic.twitter.com/i6zeAbgSuN” Beneath it is a photo of an older white woman laughing next to a facebook post from Catherine Nardi reading: “They are feral and violent. They murder each other. They murder their unborn babies. They murder white people.They hate police officers and murder some of them, even black ones. They destroy neighbors and entire cities with garbage and drugs. They live their lives off the hard-earned tax dollars of other Americans. Yet somehow they are the victims. What insanity is that?” Beneath that is a very small photo of Ferguson police with a police dog facing a line of protestors.]

seekingwillow:

ek3heat:

greteal:

coffeeandcockatiels:

buddhabrot:

angrywocunited:

So the wife of Ferguson police chief says community is “feral”. 

A wild cracker appears.

Fuck this bitch

I am so fucking ashamed and my mind is boiling from the ignorance, these people are so brain-washed by their own entitlement I can’t even fucking deal.

That’s why you cannot trust white people

Don’t, don’t fucking do that, don’t you dare, we aren’t all like her, there are ignorant people in every race, why do we label each other with bad side of our perspective races, which happen to be a small percentage anyways, can we please stop identifying each other as the worst of ourselves

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This is why you can’t trust ek3heat and also other yt ppl. Cause even people in pain and reduced to animals is just a chance to make it all about themselves.

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